kEePiNg Me rEaL ;)

I have a confession to make, not one that is horribly bad or anything but I'm sure some would roll their eyes when they read it. My husband would be one, if he didn't already know this about me.

I like to watch 'Big Brother'. Of course, I do. Yes, sometimes it can be a little abrasive to my sensitive ears {I get angry with mean people, hateful, hurtful kinds} but I'm a pretty strong gal, all in all. I don't like to see others judged so fiercely as some do on the show and, then there are some inappropriate discussions {on public television} that they have, but I am an adult.

Okay, so....I like watching, anyway. Another thing, people will be surprised to hear is that I was kind of excited to find out that Russel's brother would be on the show {Russel from Survivor - yeah, he would be one of those abrasive types that no one liked - but there is something about him, maybe that he tried so hard and really did play the game - that I liked}. He totally can't hide who he is, either, this brother guy. Pretty goofy to try, right there - I mean, look at him.

But, even more exciting to me was to find out that there is a good old Vermont boy in the mix! Yes, from Bennington {Shane}....AND....he's a carpenter! Not that it matters much what he does for work other than making it a little closer to our own personal lifestyle. People on these shows seem to be from big cities or over there somewhere in the U.S.. Rarely do we see folks from little old Vermont on the big t.v. screen. There was one a few years ago that came really close to winning on Survivor, though; Kathy...she was from Burlington, as I recall, which is just a few towns over from us.

Yes, this is not my usual kind of post but it's one that I've been thinking on lately. Getting back to the real me in every aspect is what I'm focusing on. If it bares all to the world, so be it. I am who I am, God knows me well.

I was so excited to have a few minutes this morning, of quiet, without anything pulling my attention. Sometimes, when there's something I know that needs to get done, I can't stand the feeling of it hanging over my head. So, I rush to it and find myself engulfed - sinking more and more, and forgetting that I hadn't had my quiet time with God, until I'm closing my eyes at night. I despise the fact that I do this!

This morning, I went downstairs, grabbed some yummy green tea and came up to read my Bible and talk with God for a little while. I started to get myself comfy on my bed, folding my legs into the 'criss-cross-applesauce' style and.....

I spilled my hot tea.
All over my blanket.
Which seeped through, onto my leg.
OUCH.

I quickly pulled back the cover and grabbed something to sop up the wet. Sheesh, it then looked as though I pee'd my bed! Whatever. I decided that I was NOT going to allow a little mess to distract me from taking that time out with God. Period! That's also what happens. I will be all good and focused, ready to make the time and {you might know why} something always jumps in to distract me. Most of the time, it's a child or an animal, a phone call or a really urgent passing thought - all just long enough to distract my aim.

Not today. I did take the time and it felt so good. Peace filled me up. Then, I came on to visit my friends at Facebook...make my rounds, prepare a blog post or two and here I am. The sun is shining through my bedroom window, cars are swooshing by, the fan is blowing and those boys of mine are still sleeping - peace.

Enjoy your day!