Sitting here with my fingertips a bit frozen, I can hear the water pouring into the washing machine. Boys are at school, the sun is shining brightly onto the autumn land and there is much for me to catch up on inside the home today.
Yesterday was beautiful outside and I was finally able to free a little spirit inside as I gathered the beauty all around me. A friend mentioned to me one day, through a few years of friendly observation, that I tend to hold in a bit of frustration on the inside at times. After a minute of careful thought, I must agree. Although I am content with The Lord, often at times I can find myself frustrated. I've always been this way...and, to be honest, it's frustrating {hahaha}. It is what it is.
In digging deeper, trying to find the reasons for this frustration...I find myself uncomfortable. Oh, with thoughts of trying to do what's right or what others might think or how I am seen. I find these passing thoughts more often than not, and I take them directly to my God who made me. We work through them together, and I am led to share them for whatever reason it may be. I suppose by sharing, we can connect to each other a little better; realize that we're not all alone in the ways that we feel.
My relationship with God began long ago, nearly a life time for me, of learning and growth. I am not an aggressive gal, nor very competitive; and I do not feel necessary to keep up with anyone or out do anyone. I don't even feel as though I need to prove myself, as to who I am, what I believe or my relationship with God. And yet, it would be less frustrating to be understood once in awhile - and maybe, not be pressured by others to be any more than who I am.
Can I explain myself? Well, I can...explaining gets exhausting though. Do I need to? Not really, but every once in awhile, someone will offer their own opinion. I suppose you could say that there are times when I have a bad attitude, or a strength that isn't always shown. I have to have it. I know how I'm made, the sensitivities that I have and I know that God makes no error. He made me, me; with all that I think, do, say and feel...for His purpose alone. I pray that I, each and every day, live up to that purpose - in every area of this life.
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| You can see the after photo in large format at Free Inspiring Photos. |
On another note....I had some fun with the photo taking yesterday and wasn't so impressed when I came home, again, with the settings that I chose for the day. But, oh, well, I can use them to the best of my abilities and share them as I may.
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Heather, so long as you are true to who you believe yourself to be you have no need to be concerned what others think if you are not hurting them. I think I said pretty much the same several years ago when I first started following your blog. I've not changed my opinion.
ReplyDeleteBe content in your skin. It's the only one you've got.